and the real learning starts...

[keryx]

Did you know it was possible to be dumped after a single date?

Yes. I think you heard me right. Dumped after a first date. The first of my dates to go quite well shifted direction after the fact, thanks to stuff that isn't mine to tell. I think, in a way, I even got a "Dear John" [Or Jane? Are there "Dear Jane" letters? I assume so.] letter out of it. My first ever.

It sure took me by surprise.

A spectacular surprise.

Wow. I was hurt and angry - cause hi, that's the usual reaction, I think - for about 5 minutes. Maybe 10. Ow. It was hilarious for another 20. Then I sat down to write a response, and what came out was... Understanding. And affection. And a profound sense of wonder at possibilities and the connections that form between people. It's like my best self sat up and wrote for me.

That? Is exactly what this project is for. It's about fear, and as it turns out, it's about love. Just not one and only one kind.

This may sound silly in the morning. It will still be true.

Comments

[cutegaychick.livejournal.com]

You always scare me when you start sounding like a human being :)
*kiss*
I'm glad you're okay.

[keryx.livejournal.com]

Uh. Thanks, I think?

[quietdeath.livejournal.com]

And the Grinch's heart grew 3 sizes that day.

Beso.

[keryx.livejournal.com]

Wait, does EVERYONE think I'm grinchly and inhuman? I thought it was just cutegaychick. Man. Y'all are going to give me a complex.

[quietdeath.livejournal.com]

But complexes are fun! You can act out in all manners of ways and just blame it on your complex.

Honestly, I think it is awesome that you are learning and gaining personal knowledge about yourself, others, and the nature of our relationships on this earth. Keep it up kid, you'll do just fine.

[box-o-spiders.livejournal.com]

That is really wise. You are evolving well beyond the level of emotional maturity that most people see in their lifetime.
I am inspired :)