what does your weight mean to you?

[keryx]

I think I told you kids about losing 5 lbs in California, yes? They're probably around the pool at that place in Calistoga. If anyone finds them, you're welcome to keep them. Apparently those were the 5 pounds that stood between me and delicious contentment in my body.

I don't mean that I hopped on a scale and thought AH! At last I weigh 210! Now I can be happy! but that I kept looking in mirrors and thinking something looked different that I liked. And then I discovered that I weighed very slightly less. I think it's the weight range that my body maintains when I'm moving, cooking and happy. So part of what I'm happy with in the mirror is just seeing happiness. But. I do think part of it is appearance, which while not explicitly about weight is certainly connected.

Hmm. This makes me empathise a bit better with people like my mom. You know. The ones who always have 5 lbs they want to lose.

How about you?

Comments

[sarahmichigan.livejournal.com]

Hmm, I may post about this more in-depth on my own LJ. However, rationally, my weight is neutral info. It indicates if I'm stressy or if I'm working out a lot. Unexplained weight loss/weight gain *may* indicate an underlying medical condition.

Non-rationally, my weight is an indication of whether I'm doing it "right." If I'm on the low end of my usual weight range, I'm being rigteous. If I'm at the top or go over the top of the usual range, I must be doing something "wrong." Years of conditioning are hard to overcome, even when you're a dedicated fat-pozzer.